3:58 pm
Fri, May 21, 2015
So sitting here eating a pot pie. Still haven’t slept but i started making a tutorial for my make up and boy does my voice sound weird through video! i felt weird talking to a camera. i just have to see the camera as if it was a friend. my last video wasn’t so bad i only fucked up a few times. i think I`m just going to edit it and post it. hopefully people will like it and want to see more! i think making video’s and writing a blog will help with my anxiety. hopefully… if not i probably wont go very far and your only going to be reading this for a short amount of time! lol so ThornDyke is getting kinda obsessed with getting twitter famous and thinks i will become YouTube famous…. doubt i will but i like the confidence he has for me! 😀 So soon we will go over to the library to get the interwebs! wish we had WiFi here!! We use to cuz ThorDykes friend of family lived a few apts down and she let us use the WiFi, but sadly she moved out so we are interweb free.. </3 I`m still really tired and now i kinda have a belly ache from that damn pot pie!! see the crazy thing is that i haven’t eaten anything all day but the only thing that i do eat makes my tummy upset?? ugh! and yes i did just say tummy fuck you i know i`m cool!! haha! so honestly i do kinda hope my video gets a lot of views. i mean mad girls watch tutorial videos so hopefully a few of them will come upon mine and be like “oh shes kinda cool i want to see more of her awesomeness!” not exactly like that but along those lines.. i don’t have much hope though i kinda sounded like i knew everything and i did kinda ramble on… the first one i did were horrible… i kept shuddering! “i…use this thing….. i use it to do this.. but u don’t have to if u don’t want… i guess????” almost exactly like that. I`m serious! *Face palm!* i just wish i wasn’t so freaking socially awkward… i`ve always been like that, just constantly painfully awkward. Can i just face palm my whole life cuz i have a feeling i`m going to be doing that for a REALLY long time!
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