and…. ACTION!

3:58 pm
Fri, May 21, 2015
So sitting here eating a pot pie. Still haven’t slept but i started making a tutorial for my make up and boy does my voice sound weird through video! i felt weird talking to a camera. i just have to see the camera as if it was a friend. my last video wasn’t so bad i only fucked up a few times. i think I`m just going to edit it and post it. hopefully people will like it and want to see more! i think making video’s and writing a blog will help with my anxiety. hopefully… if not i probably wont go very far and your only going to be reading this for a short amount of time! lol so ThornDyke is getting kinda obsessed with getting twitter famous and thinks i will become YouTube famous…. doubt i will but i like the confidence he has for me! 😀 So soon we will go over to the library to get the interwebs! wish we had WiFi here!! We use to cuz ThorDykes friend of family lived a few apts down and she let us use the WiFi, but sadly she moved out so we are interweb free.. </3 I`m still really tired and now i kinda have a belly ache from that damn pot pie!! see the crazy thing is that i haven’t eaten anything all day but the only thing that i do eat makes my tummy upset?? ugh! and yes i did just say tummy fuck you i know i`m cool!! haha! so honestly i do kinda hope my video gets a lot of views. i mean mad girls watch tutorial videos so hopefully a few of them will come upon mine and be like “oh shes kinda cool i want to see more of her awesomeness!” not exactly like that but along those lines.. i don’t have much hope though i kinda sounded like i knew everything and i did kinda ramble on… the first one i did were horrible… i kept shuddering! “i…use this thing….. i use it to do this.. but u don’t have to if u don’t want… i guess????” almost exactly like that. I`m serious! *Face palm!* i just wish i wasn’t so freaking socially awkward… i`ve always been like that, just constantly painfully awkward. Can i just face palm my whole life cuz i have a feeling i`m going to be doing that for a REALLY long time!

All about me and my ADD!

4:39 am THU, MAY 21, 2015

Hello people! I would tell you my name but id rather not so if there is any possible way you could know me you wouldnt know all my juicy secrets.. SOOO ill just say my name is Jennifer. The reason i pick that name is because when i was little me and my older sister would play school or any any other game like that for some damn reason i would pick that name.. really i dont have a reason for it haha! Im off topic already.. -__- SO basics! I am an unemployed lazy ass 21 year old. Thrilling huh?? I USE to be religious untill i realized i didnt really believe and i was only trying to for my so called bestieee! I am honestly not the brightest crayon in the box and i have always struggled with that my whole life and still do. i just recently realized that i might have ADD which might be the reson for not being a smarty.. of coarse it too 20 years to connect the dots but WHATEVVAA! One thing you will definitly find out along the way, i am a fucking weirdo! i say/do weird things! it use to be so much that made me “that weird girl” in my whole school years, maybe exception of one year my last year. Speaking of the last year of high school thats when i met my fiance ThroneDyke (fake name, his name choice!) We have been together for 3year and some months dont feel like doing math! We have our own apt. its a income based housing because like i said im a lazy ass unemployed 21 year old! Me and ThornDyke have lived here in our tiny ass one bedroom apartment for 2 years now and we dont completly hate it! The only reason we would, is our ASSWHIPE of a neighbor. we will call him Bill! Bill is one of those grumpy old men that hates everything and everyone! He has had a problem with us ever since we moved in. I will admit we were quite excited to have our first apartment so we were kinda loud!! We would blast our music and have loud obnoxious sex. but then we found out how much of a dick Bill was! he starated with mumbling shit in the hall and then decided to bang on the walls. ugh he frustrates me!! the only reason im still getting frustrated is because now that we have settled down and everything he still bitches at us! ANYWHO!…. So now i realized that it is 5:44 am… damn im tired! i would stop now but then ill get bored and want to go to bed. i am up this early because i have yet to even go to sleep. That i will say is ThornDykes fault. Him and our friend Nyx has been doin Nyxs’ lyricas. If your not a druggie or dont watch any of those commercials, Lyrica is a drug for people who have nerve pain. This is Nyxs’ real script but she dont like doing them like the doctors tell her because it makes her all swollen and shit.. so she likes to take them to get fucked up. Ive only taken one before and i wasnt much of a fan of it. OK i guess i should say me and ThornDyke do dapple in the drug world. im not much of the addictive part but ThornDyke likes his drugs. Now hes not some tweaker. He honestly really only likes his weed. he is a class a pot head. Not one of those dirty greasy steriotypical potheads you see on tv. YES he showers every day. Honestly my drug of choice is those wonderful little pain pills… i will tell you i know its a bad thing but i hononestly only do it once in a while and before you start thinking bad of me and tell me ill get super addicted and ruin my life ive heard it all! i dont do it all the time because i get sick and i dont like feeling sick! okay back to basics i have two wonderfull little kitties they are both girls. our first girl is 1 year old and her name is Haze. Shes my first baby and shes kind of a little bitch but what other cat isnt. our other little girly is Navi. she is a month old kitten. When we first introduced them both they HATED eachother. You should of seen that kitten the size of a small palm poofed to max!! i was dying!. i know its mean but i couldnt help it! They still dont love eachother. Haze gets super annoyed at the kitten she will hiss and swat at her but yet they will nap together trust me i got plenty of pictures! cuz they are my fur babies. ❤